Yes, it is my 46th birthday today. But I'm not sharing it to encourage more and more rah rah festivities for myself. I'm sharing it because, generally as we age, we don't much like talking about it. But I do.
This is how it worked for me. When in your teens, you think you know alot but later find that mom and dad really were right. In your 20's you're trying life out. In your 30's, you know just enough to get yourself into trouble.
And in your 40's, you really start living. You are open to new and wonderful ideas and don't mind admitting you were wrong or that you don't know stuff. (or perhaps it's because you 'forget' stuff and have to be open to relearn it over and over again...)
Despite all the hurdles I've jumped to get where I am today, I realize that all needed to transpire to make me the person I am today. I finally feel, at this age, a sort of hushed kind of peace. Perhaps it's because most of my troubled major stresses in life are slowly working themselves out. Perhaps it's because I've finally allowed new and valuable friendships into my otherwise somewhat chosen lonely life of the past. It 'takes a village' for adults too I think. Or perhaps it's all of the above and more I have yet to figure out.
And of course, I can't overlook this project that's about to embark! THAT in itself makes this day a very special one indeed!!!
But perhaps that's what aging is just meant to do for us! If that is the case, I'm REALLY looking forward to being in my 50's! Bring it on!
So for today, I'll celebrate where I'm at. And indulge in some wonderful cake with my mom and son. Gotta have the cake... yes, today just ought to be that carefree! Plus, I have my very young energetic son to help me blow out ALL THOSE CANDLES. Doesn't get much better than that!
